UPSC prep ne mera poora zindagi khatam kar diya - koi aur bhi aisa feel karta hai?

Didi log, I don't even know where to start. 22 saal ki hoon, Rajinder Nagar me rehti hoon, UPSC ki taiyari kar rahi hoon. Pichle 3 mahine se syllabus ka koi end nahi dikh raha. Kal hi mocks me 45 aaye the, maine socha tha 80+ aayenge. Ghar pe papa ko bataya toh woh bas chup ho gaye. Maa ne bola, "Beta, ek aur attempt de dena." Jaise sab kuch normal ho.

Raat ko neend hi nahi aati. 2 baje tak screen pe ghumti rehti hoon, subah uthne ka mann nahi karta. Aur haan, haal hi me baal jhadne lage hain. Shower me har roz ek muthi baal girta hai. Stress hi sab kuch kha raha hai. Dosto se baat karna band kar diya hai kyunki unhe lagega main bahana bana rahi hoon.

Doctor ko dikhaya tha, unhone melatonin diya aur bola "therapy try karo". Par therapy ka kharcha afford nahi kar sakti. Ghar me sab kehte hain "padhai pe focus karo, aur kya chahiye".

Mujhe bas yeh janna hai—yeh sab normal hai kya? Kisi aur UPSC aspirant ko bhi aisa feel hota hai? Ya main hi itni weak hoon? Please koi batao, kyunki lagta hai main akele hi is pit me gir rahi hoon.