PhD UK, RBI Grade B... aur main? 4th attempt mein phas gayi, baal bhi jhad rahe! 😭 Koi hai jo aisa feel karta hai?

Yaar kal ek friend ka status dekha. Woh abhi PhD kar raha hai UK mein, aur dusri side meri class ki ladki ne RBI Grade B clear kar liya. Mera kuch nahi ho raha. Teeno attempts waste, ab fourth baar try kar rahi hoon. Coaching Rajinder Nagar mein hai, subah 4 baje uthna hai par neend nahi aati raat ko. Ek hafte se har subah mirror mein dekhti hoon toh baal jhad rahe hain jaise patjhad mein patte. Mummy ne kal phone karke pucha "beta kaisa preparation chal raha hai?" toh maine jhooth bol diya "achha chal raha hai". Lekin andar se toti hui hoon.

Tablets bhi le rahi hoon ek - name hai 'Stresscom' ya kuch, par effect kuch khaas nahi. Aaj subah uth ke socha laptop kholun, lekin bas rona aa gaya. Aisa lagta hai sab aage nikal gaye, main yahin atki hoon. Kya kabhi mujhse ho payega ya main hi kaabil nahi hoon? Kisi ko bhi aisa lagta hai kya ki life mein sab chhod ke aage badh gaye aur aap akela reh gaye? Please batao, koi tareeka hai is feeling se bahar nikalne ka?